sunday night inspiration

A while back, in my blog perusing, I stumbled upon a video which introduced me to three things: peanut butter pie, Jose Gonzalez & Mikey. You can check out that blog HERE.

These three things lead me to this blog: In Jennie’s Kitchen, which I have since become a follower of.  Jennie lost her husband, Mikey to a heart attack almost a year ago and though she is a foodie blogger, this past many months have followed her journey of grief and moving forward. Sometimes I cry when I read her blog posts, but mostly I feel so inspired by the way she has chosen to move forwards with such bravery and grace. I certainly don’t want to discount (not assuming she’d ever read my blog) the pain she has felt. She certainly doesn’t make it sound all sunshine and rainbows, but I appreciate her brutal honesty and desire to hold onto her husband in a way that honors his life and yet still allows her to move forward.

Anyways, I was re-reading this blog from back in November of 2011 and I can’t help but find it very inspirational. De-cluttering, spending less time in the virtual/technical world and instead, appreciating and enjoying the little moments and making sure to focus on loving those close to you well. I’ve been recently been toying with the idea of deleting my facebook. This is a difficult decision for me because of the amount of friends I have that are in a vast array of other countries. But I literally feel gross when I realize that I just wasted two hours looking a pictures of FRIENDS friends –  people I don’t even know –  in the Dominican Republic. HOW DID I GET HERE? WHY AM I LOOKING AT THESE? What the?! Enough!

We’ll see how this all plays out, but summer is here, it’s been (for the most part) gorgeous outside. I don’t want to waste it sitting around on my computer. I want to breath deeply, love big and laugh a lot.

….and eat a lot of ice cream….

 

 

 

 

 

sara bareilles – breathe again

Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn’t look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I’m not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again

Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view
Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear is a love I can’t carry anymore

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching
All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again

i never knew daylight could be so violent

You are the hole in my head You are the space in my bed You are the silence in between What I thought and what I said You are the nighttime fear You are the morning when it’s clear When it’s over, you’re the start You’re my head and you’re my heart
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
To the crowd I was crying out and In your place there were a thousand other faces I was disappearing in plain sight Heaven help me, I need to make it right
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution You want a revelation
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/no-light-no-light-lyrics-florence-and-the-machine.html ] And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
Would you leave me If I told you what I’d done? And would you leave me If I told you what I’d become? ‘Cause it’s so easy To say it to a crowd But it’s so hard, my love To say it to you out loud
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution You want a revelation
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution Tell me what you want me to say

i told myself that you were right for me, but felt so lonely in your company…

…keeping on my music kick, here’s a cool video to check out where Wally (Gotye) speaks about his genre of music (being different than everything that’s playing in the clubs) and working with Kimbra.

and also, here’s the video. i’ve been cranking it every time i heard it on the radio for the past few weeks but hadn’t gone out of my way to check out WHO i was listening to or their other music. i have since corrected this massive error on my part, watched the video, purchased the album off iTunes and fallen in love. you should too 🙂

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

could this be our last dance

Augustana:  one of my fave bands. I met the bass players sister years ago. We’ve lost touch in recent years. I met her the same week that one of  my friends introduced me to Augustana’s music. It was weird, how that happened.

Well I’ve been running from something
Twenty years in my car
Down a road that’s leading me nowhere
Yeah we drive through the farmland
No one knows where we’re from
Could I kiss you and make you a queen?
Or something in between

Do you want to see it?
The place where I am free?
Cos in my mind I need it
But you’re nowhere near to me

Move to New York City
Take your woman by the hand
Leave her there with your things on the doorstep
And there’s no way around it
Could this be our last dance?
Just fall asleep with the TV darling
I’ll be back again

Do you want to see it?
The place where I was free?
Cos in my mind I’ve been there
And there’s no one here but me

In the morning it’ll find you
Let the light shine away
Down a road that’s leading me nowhere
And there’s no way around it
Could this be our last dance?
Just fall asleep with the TV darling
I’ll be back again

it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off

oh how i love florence. . .

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off

And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but its left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me