goosebumps. every. time. {devenire}

I have to get my hands on a piano AND a cello. Then I have to find the time to play both. I also need a house, because this tiny little place of mine won’t house either the instruments or the beautiful noise they create. I’m only almost 32. I have time, right?

 

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there’s beauty in the breakdown

neglect.

i have not blogged. i guess it’s been the summer and i’ve had a lot of family in and a lot of thoughts swirling around my head and heart matters to deal with.

stumbled upon this short behind the scenes vogue shoot with ADELE, whom i adore. even more so when i listen to her speak in interviews. there’s something so inspiring and beautiful about her that goes beyond her voice and gorgeous face.

sara bareilles – breathe again

Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn’t look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I’m not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again

Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view
Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear is a love I can’t carry anymore

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching
All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again

i never knew daylight could be so violent

You are the hole in my head You are the space in my bed You are the silence in between What I thought and what I said You are the nighttime fear You are the morning when it’s clear When it’s over, you’re the start You’re my head and you’re my heart
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
To the crowd I was crying out and In your place there were a thousand other faces I was disappearing in plain sight Heaven help me, I need to make it right
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution You want a revelation
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/no-light-no-light-lyrics-florence-and-the-machine.html ] And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
Would you leave me If I told you what I’d done? And would you leave me If I told you what I’d become? ‘Cause it’s so easy To say it to a crowd But it’s so hard, my love To say it to you out loud
No light, no light In your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can’t choose what stays and what fades away And I’d do anything to make you stay No light, no light Tell me what you want me to say
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution You want a revelation
You want a revelation You want to get “right” But it’s a conversation I just can’t have tonight You want a revelation Some kind of resolution Tell me what you want me to say

i told myself that you were right for me, but felt so lonely in your company…

…keeping on my music kick, here’s a cool video to check out where Wally (Gotye) speaks about his genre of music (being different than everything that’s playing in the clubs) and working with Kimbra.

and also, here’s the video. i’ve been cranking it every time i heard it on the radio for the past few weeks but hadn’t gone out of my way to check out WHO i was listening to or their other music. i have since corrected this massive error on my part, watched the video, purchased the album off iTunes and fallen in love. you should too 🙂

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off

oh how i love florence. . .

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off

And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but its left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me

Hints – Jose Gonzalez

While the crowd is waiting for the final kiss
the one which allows them to sleep well
We’ll walk along our own path
the one which will lead us to our own bliss

But we need hints
before we get tired
But we need hints
before we get tired
We need hints
before we lose pace
Now we need a hint
to know we’re on the right track

But we need hints
before we get tired
But we need hints
before we get tired
We need speed
before we lose pace
Now we need a hint
to know we’re on the right track